Alone in darkness

 

PARANOID NETS

baby was born in the wrong time
crying all night long
the whole city went unemployed at one day
and wintry mountains captured the sun into the cage

sucha bad day
sucha bad day

could you be please quiet please
i have to stop the mess in my head
we stuff the meat of crazy cows
and we lost the sense for blooming meadows
since a month you wear nothing new
and yellow pills dont work

sucha bad day
sucha bad day

paranoid nets can stop butterflies
and i have to stop the mess in my head

[PARANOID NETS: FREE FACES : ALMOST TRUE STORY]

Circu(lu)s vitiosus

Circus of life... circu(lu)s vitiosus..
Passion, patience, urge to have more than you do, never ending (un) satisfaction...

Waste, wanting, pain and believing...
Gimme, let me have....

the goal is in the making...
Happiness - another name for sorrow.

Love - the final drug that gets served with sex.

No Ordinary Morning

If there was nothing that i could say
turned your back and you just walked away
leaves me numb inside i think of you
together is all i ever knew

We moved too fast but i had no sign
i would try to turn the hands of time
i looked to you for a reason why
the love we had passed me by
And as the sun would set you would rise
fall from the sky into paradise
is there no light in your heart for me
you´ve closed your eyes you don´t longer see

There were no lies between me and you
you said nothing of what you knew
but there was still something in your eyes
left me helpless and paralysed

You could give a million reasons
change the world and change the tides
could not give me the secrets
of your heart and of your mind
in the darkness that surrounds me
now there is no peace of mind
your careless words undo me
leave the thought of us behind

(Chicane - No Ordinary Morning)

Nemými ústami kričím o pomoc,

sám nahý opäť na ulici stojím.

Neviditeľná je samota.

Mráz ohnivými jazykmi páli posledné stopy lásky.

Samota hebkou pavučinou pokryla krídla -

letieť už nie je kam.

Diaľka vábi a zíva bezodnou hĺbkou.

Chladivý vánok unáša sny...

Silent mouth cries for help

alone and naked again on the street I stand.

Solitude is concealed.

Blazing flames of frost burn last traces of love.

Smooth cobweb of solitude covered the wings –

There is nowhere to fly.

Distance tempts and gapes with bottomless depth.

Soothing-cold breeze caries away the dreams…

So finally, somebody is looking for a serious relationship... When I initially saw the email, and read the first few lines... My heart almost stopped (ok, ok, I know it is not for real, and i do know that it is spam... )
But I read "Hello from nice Irina... I am looking for serious relationship, are you?" and the fact that I met my classmate that goes under the same name just few minutes before seeing this mail in the library did its job... (By the way, my classmate is gorgeous, although she has blondish hair, she is still stunningly elegant...)


But there is another thing that deserves attention... I mean, did you notice all those positive attributes that the e-mail mentioned? I wonder, into what degree are these actually those qualities, that men seek in their future partners (I mean seriously seeking future partners, not FANTA's) ... Like being kindhearted, sincere, merry, honest, open, attentive, caring, loving, easy-going, with good sense of humor, loving home warmth and comfort. Well by now I already had a feeling I am reading email from an angel... (oh c'mon are there people with only positive features?)

And this one almost killed me (well, after this one I definitely knew it is spam) having traditional and deeply developed sense of family values and belief in the family as the center of all life. (Bla bla bla bla... It reminds me of this american guy I met in Jama pub in Prague, who told me that he had first wife from USA and she was a bitch, his second from Germany... they still divorced, and now his current girlfriend is from Ukraine and is just perfect... she does not bitch about him comming home late etc... and he was actually aiming at establishing correlation between the longitude and the suitability of women for a long-term relationship, so is it eastern girls that western men are longing for?)

And the list continued, this angel does not like conflict, deceit, lies, and angry words or loud and hurtful talk... (Oh c'mon, who likes conflict, deceit lies and angry words? Yes, please talk to me in hurtful way, lie to my and deceive me...) She longs to devote herself to her future family – to her only one man and their children. (Wow!!!)

By now she probably got attention of all those family guys... but now what I did not quite understand ... the list of her hobbies, is it chosen on random or does it tailor certain interest group? She likes reading a lot, spending time outdoors, and walking in the park, different kinds of outdoor activities. she loves sea, sauna. and is fond of playing tennis and badminton; fitness, dancing, listening to music, traveling, alternative medicine (alternative medicine??? is she a witch?). But if this girl exists... I would only wonder why she has to write emails to random people... she probably has a que at her doorstep...

Pád - Fall

Pád nie je letom - hra gravitácie.
Dopad - nádej padajúceho,
Ak nikdy nedopadneš?
Je večný pád letom?
Zostaneš padať vo večnej prázdnote.
Až kým holubica svojim krídla perom diamantovú horu neodnesie.
12/13.3 1998 New York, USA

Fall is not a flight – pure joke of gravity.
Bottom-hit – the final hope of falling,
But what if you never hit the bottom?
Is eternal fall a flight?
You’ll keep on falling in the eternal void.
Until the dove caries away the diamond mountain on the feather of her wing.
12/13.3 1998 (transl. Nov.3 2006 Hungary)

Something ugly this way comes
Through my fingers sliding inside
All these blessings all these burns
I'm godless underneath your cover
Search for pleasure search for pain
In this world now I am undying
I unfurl my flag my nation helpless
Black black heart why would you offer more
Why would you make it easier on me to satisfy
I'm on fire - I'm rotting to the core
I'm eating all your kings and queens
All your sex and your diamonds

As I begin to lose my grip
On these realities your sending
Taste your mind and taste your sex
I'm naked underneath your cover
Covers lie and we will bend and borrow
With the coming sign
The tide will take the sea will rise and time will rape

Black black heart why would you offer more
Why would you make it easier on me to satisfy
I'm on fire I'm rotting to the core
I'm eating all your kings and queens
All your sex and your diamonds

Black black heart why would you offer more
Why would you make it easier on me to satisfy
I'm on fire I'm rotting to the core
I'm eating all your kings and queens
All your sex and your diamonds
All your sex and your diamonds
All your sex and your diamonds
All your sex and your diamonds
All your sex and your diamonds
(DAVID USHER) 

Partial Reunion...

Dusk to Dawn

Is it daylight?
I hardly ever notice I hardly feel the sun -
And I never feel anyone...

And if you could hold me now -
Oh baby...
Then we could go around again...

Is it daylight? I hardly ever notice I hardly feel the sun And I never feel anyone?

(Chicane - Daylight)

Sanctum - a place of inviolable privacy.

Infinity... infinity?
sky cold, skin blue, when i wake
so swim into essential, you´ve swam a thousand voids
why is eternity forever? Why is eternity forever?
skin screams bear me again, inner sanctum?
we watch from dry land
while waves destroy our theories
so swim into essential, you´ve swam a thousand voids
why is eternity forever? the horizon deceives
some say ´their ships above sea´ sailing on winds of belief
why waves destroy our theories bear me again
sky cold, skin blue, when I wake to worship water
sky cold, skin blue, when I wake, infinity waving
sky cold, skin blue, when I wake, infinity waving
(Delerium - Inner Sanctum)

Silence in violence

Give me release Witness me
I am outside ive me peace
Heaven holds a sense of wonder And I wanted to believe that I'd get caught up when the rage in me subsides

Passion choke the flower 'til she cries no more Possessing all the beauty
Hungry still for more
Heaven holds a sense of wonder And I wanted to believe that I'd get caught up when the rage in me subsides

In this white wave, I am seeking, in this silence In this white wave, in this silence I believe

I can't help this longing Comfort me I can't hold it all in If you won't let me
Heaven holds a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe that I'd get caught up when the rage in me subsides
In this silence I believeI am seeking In this silence In this white wave In this silence I believe
I have seen you in this violence you were silent You are breathing in this white wave
I am free

(Delerium - Silence)

Choose one:
1. Real Fiction through illusive reflection of faculty tower.
OR
2. Windows reflected on window
OR
3. CEU Faculty Tower reflected on the Library window overlooking Fiction shelves, as seen from the Japaneese garden... 

Decide

Ocean a dialavy ------------ Ocean and distances
ostrov a mesto --------------Island and the city
basne a rozpravky ----------Poems and fairy-tales
to vsetko sa nachadza ------All of that is inside
v mysli nas vsetkych --------the minds of all of us

It is now, the time when I can (actually have to) decide, the options are open, but the decision (under the conditions of scarcity), has to be made. I have to make the decision.

Loneliness, the freedom, the fear.

Emancipate yourselves

Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery;
None but ourselves can free our minds.
Have no fear for atomic energy,
'Cause none of them can stop the time.
How long shall they kill our prophets,
While we stand aside and look?

I will not share what I hide after all...

There is not really anything to add, click, watch and the lyrics...

APPARAT - Komponent

Wonder how long we can get away...
Side by side...
I’m stuck to my phoney pride..
Always craving for something missing...
Never get it... I’m always trying...
I’ll never get it... Always trying...
Never really been down... with someone...
Every one of us would wish to be...
Someday not too far away and to be facing..
Never share what we hide after all...
What I’d share what we hide after all...
See it passing by, every day, yeah...
We’re living up time... In denial...
Everyone of us deep inside wishes...
We will share what we hide after all...
We could share what we hide after all...

We could share what we hide after all...

Absent presence

Seeing - immaterial. Touching with my eyes, omnipresent beauty, the pleasure from perception. Fear. Gently take care of the bubble, butterfly's wings, you cannot touch. Touch is the destiny, touch is the beginning of the end. The dream came true - the dream destroyed. The urge, the desire, the pleasure from the incompletness...

There are two types of tragedies in life. One is not getting what you want, the other is getting it.

Spit or throw up?

Shaken by a force, as if held by a mighty hand. Small ball spit out of my lungs. Woken up, scared of shame? Examining surrounding, he slept, so did I? But what was it?

CEU Alumni 2006 SK_Kru

Tak nam P.J. sprevadzkoval Blog...
CEU Alumni 2006 SK_Kru
Tak to sa uz hadam aj akademicky rok konci, ze? Skoda, ze este nie je skonceny, ale sme tesne pred deadlinami... F(n)uck!

Lola's website, my favorite videoclip is the last one.... 

Lola cute Hungarian singer

Lola hivatalos website

Well, I would not have guessed, that I will find my next idol in Hungarian pop-singer. She goes under name LOLA, and she got me with her video clip Hallja meg a vila (I have whatsoever no clue what that means or what she sings about, but she is definitely my type... )