Alone in darkness

 

PARANOID NETS

baby was born in the wrong time
crying all night long
the whole city went unemployed at one day
and wintry mountains captured the sun into the cage

sucha bad day
sucha bad day

could you be please quiet please
i have to stop the mess in my head
we stuff the meat of crazy cows
and we lost the sense for blooming meadows
since a month you wear nothing new
and yellow pills dont work

sucha bad day
sucha bad day

paranoid nets can stop butterflies
and i have to stop the mess in my head

[PARANOID NETS: FREE FACES : ALMOST TRUE STORY]

Circu(lu)s vitiosus

Circus of life... circu(lu)s vitiosus..
Passion, patience, urge to have more than you do, never ending (un) satisfaction...

Waste, wanting, pain and believing...
Gimme, let me have....

the goal is in the making...
Happiness - another name for sorrow.

Love - the final drug that gets served with sex.

No Ordinary Morning

If there was nothing that i could say
turned your back and you just walked away
leaves me numb inside i think of you
together is all i ever knew

We moved too fast but i had no sign
i would try to turn the hands of time
i looked to you for a reason why
the love we had passed me by
And as the sun would set you would rise
fall from the sky into paradise
is there no light in your heart for me
you´ve closed your eyes you don´t longer see

There were no lies between me and you
you said nothing of what you knew
but there was still something in your eyes
left me helpless and paralysed

You could give a million reasons
change the world and change the tides
could not give me the secrets
of your heart and of your mind
in the darkness that surrounds me
now there is no peace of mind
your careless words undo me
leave the thought of us behind

(Chicane - No Ordinary Morning)

Nemými ústami kričím o pomoc,

sám nahý opäť na ulici stojím.

Neviditeľná je samota.

Mráz ohnivými jazykmi páli posledné stopy lásky.

Samota hebkou pavučinou pokryla krídla -

letieť už nie je kam.

Diaľka vábi a zíva bezodnou hĺbkou.

Chladivý vánok unáša sny...

Silent mouth cries for help

alone and naked again on the street I stand.

Solitude is concealed.

Blazing flames of frost burn last traces of love.

Smooth cobweb of solitude covered the wings –

There is nowhere to fly.

Distance tempts and gapes with bottomless depth.

Soothing-cold breeze caries away the dreams…

So finally, somebody is looking for a serious relationship... When I initially saw the email, and read the first few lines... My heart almost stopped (ok, ok, I know it is not for real, and i do know that it is spam... )
But I read "Hello from nice Irina... I am looking for serious relationship, are you?" and the fact that I met my classmate that goes under the same name just few minutes before seeing this mail in the library did its job... (By the way, my classmate is gorgeous, although she has blondish hair, she is still stunningly elegant...)


But there is another thing that deserves attention... I mean, did you notice all those positive attributes that the e-mail mentioned? I wonder, into what degree are these actually those qualities, that men seek in their future partners (I mean seriously seeking future partners, not FANTA's) ... Like being kindhearted, sincere, merry, honest, open, attentive, caring, loving, easy-going, with good sense of humor, loving home warmth and comfort. Well by now I already had a feeling I am reading email from an angel... (oh c'mon are there people with only positive features?)

And this one almost killed me (well, after this one I definitely knew it is spam) having traditional and deeply developed sense of family values and belief in the family as the center of all life. (Bla bla bla bla... It reminds me of this american guy I met in Jama pub in Prague, who told me that he had first wife from USA and she was a bitch, his second from Germany... they still divorced, and now his current girlfriend is from Ukraine and is just perfect... she does not bitch about him comming home late etc... and he was actually aiming at establishing correlation between the longitude and the suitability of women for a long-term relationship, so is it eastern girls that western men are longing for?)

And the list continued, this angel does not like conflict, deceit, lies, and angry words or loud and hurtful talk... (Oh c'mon, who likes conflict, deceit lies and angry words? Yes, please talk to me in hurtful way, lie to my and deceive me...) She longs to devote herself to her future family – to her only one man and their children. (Wow!!!)

By now she probably got attention of all those family guys... but now what I did not quite understand ... the list of her hobbies, is it chosen on random or does it tailor certain interest group? She likes reading a lot, spending time outdoors, and walking in the park, different kinds of outdoor activities. she loves sea, sauna. and is fond of playing tennis and badminton; fitness, dancing, listening to music, traveling, alternative medicine (alternative medicine??? is she a witch?). But if this girl exists... I would only wonder why she has to write emails to random people... she probably has a que at her doorstep...

Pád - Fall

Pád nie je letom - hra gravitácie.
Dopad - nádej padajúceho,
Ak nikdy nedopadneš?
Je večný pád letom?
Zostaneš padať vo večnej prázdnote.
Až kým holubica svojim krídla perom diamantovú horu neodnesie.
12/13.3 1998 New York, USA

Fall is not a flight – pure joke of gravity.
Bottom-hit – the final hope of falling,
But what if you never hit the bottom?
Is eternal fall a flight?
You’ll keep on falling in the eternal void.
Until the dove caries away the diamond mountain on the feather of her wing.
12/13.3 1998 (transl. Nov.3 2006 Hungary)

Something ugly this way comes
Through my fingers sliding inside
All these blessings all these burns
I'm godless underneath your cover
Search for pleasure search for pain
In this world now I am undying
I unfurl my flag my nation helpless
Black black heart why would you offer more
Why would you make it easier on me to satisfy
I'm on fire - I'm rotting to the core
I'm eating all your kings and queens
All your sex and your diamonds

As I begin to lose my grip
On these realities your sending
Taste your mind and taste your sex
I'm naked underneath your cover
Covers lie and we will bend and borrow
With the coming sign
The tide will take the sea will rise and time will rape

Black black heart why would you offer more
Why would you make it easier on me to satisfy
I'm on fire I'm rotting to the core
I'm eating all your kings and queens
All your sex and your diamonds

Black black heart why would you offer more
Why would you make it easier on me to satisfy
I'm on fire I'm rotting to the core
I'm eating all your kings and queens
All your sex and your diamonds
All your sex and your diamonds
All your sex and your diamonds
All your sex and your diamonds
All your sex and your diamonds
(DAVID USHER)